I was coming up pretty empty on reflections from 208. As I sat with my thoughts, I couldn't think of how to summarize the year or think of any accomplishments or acknowledge any amount of growth. I was feeling life 2018 was one of the most simple and "basic" years of my life. As the time got closer to midnight, Jeff and I talked about our intentions for the coming year and all that we were proud of from the previous year...and that's what I needed, to remember were we started and where we are now.
2018 was a year of massive growth. SO FREAKING MASSIVE. 2018, was a year of real authentic self-care. I created myself over those 365 days.
1. In 2018, I for the first tie in my entire relationship, let go of fear and worry and choose to be 100% all in. I wanted so badly to marry the man I was with that I self-sabotaged a lot.
2. In 2018, I allowed myself to be real and vulnerable and let Jeff take care of me. I asked for help when I needed it and didn't feel ashamed by it.
3. In 2018, I learned to managed my emotions and my anger. I learned to look at things differently and was able to discern what was important and what was not.
4. In 2018, I created boundaries within my life, to protect my space and allow more room for healing.
5. In 2018, I learned a lot. I read a lot of books on health, healing, energy, spirit, creativity, love. So many things.
6. In 2018, I treated my body better. I felt good and I loved/love myself as I was/am.
7. In 2018, I created art. Lots of art. Art I didn't know I could make and home decor that Impressed.
8. In 2018, I became a really, really good cook.
9. In 2018, I dove deep into creating the healthiest most authentic love with Jeff,
10. In 2018, I learned that having the last word is never worth it.
11. In 2018, I went back to school.
12. In 2018, I changed my career.
13. In 2018, I stopped living in fear.
14. In 2018, I had more fun.
15. In 2018, I let shit go.
16. In 2018, I got engaged to the man I dreamed of marrying.
17. In 2018, I cried less.
18. In 2018, I found peace with who I am.
19. In 2018, I was fucking happy.
20. In 2018, I never stopped fighting for the life I wanted.
2018 was the first year where I wasn't waiting for something. I wasn't waiting for any surgery, I wasn't waiting for any healing. I wasn't waiting for the grass to be greener. I wasn't waiting for permission anymore. I tended my own lawn, I planted my own garden and did the work to create all the beauty. I did it. And this year, I will do it all again.
Good vibes + big love,
